If you follow me on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter, you may have noticed that I have not been posting much this week. There is a reason for that. This week I received some news about my health. After having some blood tests and an ultrasound done, I was told by my doctor yesterday that I have cysts on my ovaries. This is part of a condition called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome which is also known as PCOS. When my doctor uttered those words, I felt as if I just had a bomb dropped on me and naturally, my mind chose to spit out all the negative thoughts first. The rest of Tuesday after my appointment, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday morning were spent in worry. Instead of planning for anything to happen and hoping for the best, I worried myself nearly sick and was expecting the worst. After my appointment, I walked out feeling a little negative. I put myself down and began researching all that I could do myself to maintain the condition.
One of the contributing factors to PCOS is weight. So, after finding out my news yesterday I started shaming myself a little. Thinking of all the things I could do in terms of exercise, all the foods i could eat to keep me healthy. My mind went haywire. As I sat reading a book yesterday, I began to change how I think. I gave myself yesterday to wallow in sadness, to mope over the diagnosis. Then, this morning I got up and started a brand new day with some happy, positive thoughts.
Is There a point to this post you ask? Well, yes there is.
I fell down the well of negativity, but the important thing is that I got back up, and I have a plan. I don’t know what my body will throw at me next, and I know that when and if it happens I will be ready to accept it and fight whatever it is. For the moment, I am me. I am healthy If not a little over-weight but I’m here, still alive and still very much happy.
Today starts my journey to a happy, fit, positive, healthy me.